Isn't it funny how when you are paranoid about something and then you ask someone a question their answer adds to the paranoia? OK well it isn't that funny to the paranoid person cause it drives them bat shit crazy.
My paranoia has been fueled by lack of sleep and vague ass answers to questions I ask friends.
It feels like a hurricane inside me. A vortex of doubt and reason battling for dominance, but there is no winner. I feel like I can't believe what I see and what I am told, skepticism reigns supreme. It's actually more than skepticism...It's tough to describe. Luckily I'm not paranoid to the point where I think people are out to get me, I'm not that crazy, I just can't trust what I am being told by close partners. I feel as if they are constantly lying and I have to remember everything that is said to prove their lies...and made up infidelities in one case lol.
Oh well it will get better when I don't have so much time to focus on bullshit!
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